Ugh..Life..

Well I'm sitting here, I cant sleep. I have way to much on my mind. Things are really bad right now. And it's really hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Andy has been un-employed for 2 months now. Our savings is officially down to $0 dollars! We got a power shut off notice, a phone shut off notice. And did I mention our cars are about 25 days behind on there payment? Just freaking fabulous! For the past week I have had this sick feeling in the pit of my stomach, that just will not go away. Andy & I have been behind on bills before..but NEVER like this. And were just kind of stuck. Andy is receiving un-employment checks and is going to school 12 hours a day. So he cant go out and get a job...a part time job would pay what is un-employment is, so there really is no point. I am receiving food assistance from the state..getting a part time job would take that away..and again there would really be no point, it would come out to be about the same. Getting a full time job would also be pointless..daycare is so freaking expensive, after the cost of daycare I would only be making like 200 dollars a month! That's ridiculous!! I am doing what I can though..putting jeans on EBay. And that actually does pretty well. I just wish there were more hours in a day, then I could put more on and make more money.

So basically we just have to wait..Wait for Andy to finish school. On April 27Th he has orientation with a trucking company. He will train with them for 3 weeks..getting paid $420 a week. Then after that he will be making about $3500 a month. By then though we will be so behind, I'm not even sure if we will be able to catch up on our bills. It pretty much seems impossible.

while I cannot wait for Andy to work again, and be making money again..it is going to suck very bad! He will be gone 14 days..home 2..gone 14...home 2..Etc. I'm not really sure how that is going to work out? It's going to be very hard.

It feels really good to just vent!!! I have lots of it lol. Thanks for reading...